Berhabuk + an email from a friend!

greetings!

fuh, berhabuk dh blog ni
xde mende ntok diupdate
*ade je.tp sedeyh2.xnak post.contohnye test OOP yg hanco*
:(

so, nk bersihkan blog ni jap

*vacuum.vacuum*

nothing to write now + no time to write
but then,
just read an email from a friend
kinda interesting
i'll Ctrl+V it below
enjoy!

To those who are married.... Not married.... and soon to be married.....
MARRIAGE

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce.. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?
I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce.
She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions.. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully..

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time.. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card.. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank, blah..blah.. blah. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

Du.Ga.An...

lepas solat maghrib td, jumpe fawaz, harith n adib.sume tgh lapa.especially fawaz.xmakan nasik lg ari ni katenye.*kecoh betol*.so, kitorang pon setuju la nk g makan.katne?bosan lah asyik g convofair je.jom makan western lah.bereh.. so, kitorang nk g v5.
*bersemangat nih*

sampai je v5, berpusing2 mencari tempat parking.xjumpe2 jugak.last, decide nk parking tempat haram.*dalam otak dh pikir,klo kena saman,siapla korang*.tgh struggle2 nk parking tempat haram tu,ade la pulak kete kuar.nasib baek.so, happily park kete n menapak ke cafe.sampai je cafe, tgk tempat western tu tutup.adeyh!*1st time* nasik lemak pon tutup.adeyh!*kali ke-2*. camne neh?lalu, sume bersepakat, jom g v3 lah.menapak sudeyh...

maka, menapakla kami ke v3 pulak.ingatkan dekat.jauhla jugak rupenye.*xpe,aku ingatkan diri pasal 1 iklan ni, berjalanlah 10,000 langkah sehari untuk mengekalkan jantung yg sihat*.nk dijadikan cerita sedihnye, western v3 pon tutup.adeyh!*kali ke-3*. ok xpe2.. last choice,western v4!

dgn penuh gigih dan berwawasan, turun tangge yg agak tinggi tu menuju ke v4.sampai je ke v4,penuhla pulak org.bagai lalat menghurung makanan yg sedap.adeyh!*kali ke-4*.geramnye! okeh, jom makan luar!

terpakse la menapak semula ke v5.*jauh ok*.naseb baek ade hiburan sepanjang perjalanan.ape hiburannye?haa..yg tu yg korang xperlu tahu.sampai kat v5, jumpe la ngan zam,ilmi,ikhwan n faris.*mcm pelik je*.diorang nk tempah ngan kitorang.bereh...

otw nk kuar tu,aku tnye la bebudak ni,"nanti 4 org tu sms la diorang nk tempah ape.duit cukupkan?aku xbawak dompet...".harith-rm20; fawaz-rm14; adib,pun xbawak dompet-rm3.20."cukup x ni?". CUKUP... *aku dh cuak*

sampai je kat kedai tu.lalu orderla makanan."cukup ke ni?".MCM X CUKUP JE! pulak dah...
camne neh?
option 1:gamble je.kena basuh pinggan,gasak r...
option 2:swuh org yg tempah tu dtg sini, bwk duet.. *tp ujan ni.siyan diorang*

setelah bersidang, ktorang decide amik option 1.matilah klo xcukup! so, harith pegi total up kat counter.
dadaku berdebar.
fikiranku melayang.
jiwaku meronta.
harith,doaku mengiringimu ke sana...

duit total: rm37.20
jumlah perlu dibayar: jeng3... rm36.50!
balance: rm0.70 *phew!*

alhamdulillah, xpayah basuh pinggan..
klo x,aku pikir camni je;
*tinggal fawaz je la kat sini.sbg gadaian smentara g amik duit.tp, laku ke?heh3*

k la,dh setel.balik utp, singgah dulu kat masjid an-nur.solat isyak.*plus memanjatkan kesyukuran*.tp, time harith nk turun kete, adeyh!*kali ke-5 n terkuat*.selipar harith tinggal sebelah je.puas carik dlm kete, xde.kemane hilangnye sebelah lg, kitorang sendiri pon xtau.wallahua'lam.

tp xpe,harith dgn slumbernye menapak ke masjid dgn memakai selipar sebelah kiri je..
*suspek la harith!*

-the end-
ni la dugaan namenye..

moral of the story:
1. klo nk kuar makan, bwk dompet
2. klo nk terima pesanan, mintak deposit
3. len kali lipat *duit sorok* dalam dompet.bleh gune time emergency
4. sentiasa perhatikan selipar anda!

I Go

"So long, fare thee well
The dancer and the dancing days have taken leave and fell
So turn down this bed of stone
Quench me with the deadly nightshade from the rose that you belong

The long December rain is falling now
Running down on streets to nowhere
Music is my life youre my sweetest nightingale
But I cant hear it here no more
And I go
I go

Hush now, dont shake or break
Words have fallen silent like soldiers to the grave
No matter what they do or say
Lay me on the sleepy meadow by the tracks upon your face"

Well,
that is surely not a piece of art of mine.
it is lyrics for a nice,sweet and beautiful song entitled I GO.
vocal of Aizat.
but i don't really care who sing the song.
all i know is the lyrics and the great melody
was written and composed by Pete Teo.
I GO is actually one of the soundtrack from the film TALENTIME.
only this afternoon i had the chance to watch the movie.
the movie is so-so.
just another late yasmin ahmad's film of life philosophy.
yet,i kinda like the movie.
the theme especially.
still, the best part of the movie would be its soundtracks.
all of them are damn nice!
here are some of them.
1. JUST ONE BOY - Aizat
2. ANGEL - Atilia
3. I GO - Aizat

a new day!

minggu ini dirasakan seperti permulaan satu semester yg baru
jadual dh finalize

sume lab dh register
*bagus3*


19 jam kredit; 7 subjects
*tersangat berat dirasakan*
1.business accounting
2.principles of marketing
3.principles of finance
4.object oriented programming
5.database system
6.data communication & networking
7.basic islamic studies



hari jumaat bukan lg hari cuti
bahkan hari yg pack
*tgk jadual terbaru kat bwah ni*

jadual ini tidak lagi sama dgn jadual ainul

hari ni pon pack jugak
aduh!

p/s:loads of thanx to ainul yg tolong hantar assg semalam!

Debat Alam Sekitar 2009; a living memory!

gretings!
dh lama plan nk update blog pasal
debat alam sekitar ni
xsempat2..

DEBAT ALAM SEKITAR
bnyak perkara berguna yg aku belajar drpd DAS

first,
SENYUM
DAS menyababkan aku sedar
betapa pentingnya untuk kita senyum
especially bile berhadapan dengan orang ramai
*people love to see u smile at them as much as you want them to smile at you*
drpd seorang yg susah untuk tersenyum,
alhamdulillah
i think dat
i smile more often now
*kau tersenyum, ku tersenyum, kemesraan menguntum*
thanx DAS...

a.yu.ping.pong.pyang!

second,
PROFESSIONALISM
i've learned the true professionalism thru DAS
i can see how professional peklah was dat nite
*kan peklah?or is it hipokrit??*
and me myself,
i believe that
i was giving my higest level of professionalism for DAS
thanx for the single problem
*specifically for the one that gave me the real problem.i hope u know who u r*
susah nk jd profesional ni
i mean,
to treat kerja and personal differently
to treat teammate and rival differently *its the same person*
to treat love and hatred differently *towards the same person*
however,
u actually can if you are professional
*still, aku ade pikir yg professionalism comes together with hipocrisy.betol x?*
thanx DAS...

welcoming dinner

third,
FRIENDSHIP
i made lots of frens here
dispite of the fact that
we're from different batches,
we're like a family
a big happy family!
not only dat,
within 3 months working for DAS
now i know my friends better *all of u guys*
now i know my coursemates better *ainul la tu*
now i know my batchmates batter *ramai...*
now i know my x-jiran better *naufalkah??munirkah??*
now i know wadi, peklah, syazzy, gowe, midi, mocca, eddy, sidiq better
*sidiq termasuk skali ke?*
i learned that
they're all my frens
but they're not the same
so, i've to treat them differently
becoz, while some can accept me as what i am
some others just can't
neway,
thanx DAS...

the bestest family day ever!

fourth,
highest level of appreciation for
usherettes n PR family
all the effort we put in
to make us as a family
really paid off at the end
UDM debaters were very impressed
about the bonding among us!
and i believed others were kagum too
good job guys!
i really hope that
DAS would be memories not to be forgot
we had training together
we played tuju selipar
we sang
we danced
we had heart-2-heart session
we laughed,
and yes,
some of us did cry
i cried too..

but, no matter what happens
u guys were great buddies!
thanx for the great memories
and very sorry if i've done wrong...
*korang sume bleh pikir sendiri kan?*
*korang sume kan dh besar...*
=P
thanx DAS...

we're 1 BIG family

my siblings- zati, syahmi, zaira n zaiti

fifth,
millions of thanx to UDM debaters
u guys r very sporting
thanx for being very cooperative
thanx for treating me as a fren!
erk, sorry jugak klo ade salah silap
sorry bnyak2...
always keep in touch ok!
=P

midah-seorang team leader yg hebat.keep it up!
azsikin-best speaker tu.congratz!
siska-bersemangat waja.petah berdebat.
faiz-bakal manjadi pendebat yg hebat.
hanas-i wish to see u berdebat one day.
salmi-same goes to you!

salmi,siska,cik nora,me,faiz,hanaz,mida,syikin

nature hunt. thanx guys!

-ha! sebelum aku lupe..
personally sorry to eddy, gowe, peklah, shafy n sara sbb aku ade tertengking korang..
sorry..-

all in all
DAS gave me a great experience
thanx DAS
thanx ALL!




*rindu korang sume! siyes...* :'(